Random thoughts

I am plagued by a constant ringing of the ears, of a song over the horizon and inside and to the sides of me-- the thought that if I was only trying a bit harder, I could fly away from this place.


I remember the first time I met him.  I was in my room, and he happened to walk by.  He saw the figurines of Horus and Anubis looking out the door.  We both knew what they meant.  I was so overjoyed to meet someone who knew that I grabbed him and hugged him like I've never hugged anyone before or since.  I told him I loved him.  We never mentioned it again.  I wonder if he remembers it as well as I do... or at all.


We told the counselors we loved each other.  It was a Christian preschool, a bit awkward.  We said we were going to get married.  It was a long time ago, before the churches were fully freaked out about gay marriage.  The counselors showed us pictures of girls walking together on a beach.  They said it did happen sometimes.  Her name was Cassie.  We were around five.  O, how the innocence of youth doth surpass us.